My voice was a tsunami wave
Slowly approaching, but when it crashed, it came fast
Furious and ready to drown out the sound of you swimming
Has been found and now I must learn to control it.
Is sharp. It will slice the soles of your feet like decaying shells buried beneath the sand.
But never forget how warm and welcoming this sand felt, before you dug too deep and hurt yourself.
My saliva is heavily salted with pain from my past
And I admit that I sometimes let it consume me
Sometimes people mistake me for the Black Sea,
shriveling the life out of everything that dives into me.
and I admit, my words can be deadly
But I promise, I am not deadly.
Be patient with me.
I am learning to navigate my waters,
I have yet to allow you to explore the depths of me.
Be kind to me. Don’t provoke me.
Stop trying to sail me with your inexperienced raft-like mind
because you will need a ship to get out of my head alive so…
at every stage, at the calm before the looming crests of my waves, love me.
Because this voice
Is the only thing that keeps me safe.